Faith, Focus, Patience
The Universe has asked me for a mere 3 things in return for helping me build a life I’m proud of, a life I truly enjoy. Faith, Focus and Patience; just 3 seemingly easy-to-do things. So what’s the issue you may ask? I’ve been invisible and mostly silent until recently; childhood and ongoing trauma. Faith has always felt impossible because of life experiences. Focus, well I’m either hyper-focused or scatter-brained, nothing in between. Patience, I feel as though I’ve been patient for far too long and now I am anxiously, restless; sometimes feeling my “late start” means I’m running out of time.
The Universe however, believes in the being it created and It fights for me everyday. Supports me, everyday. Loves and comforts me, everyday. Every moment I felt alone, the Universe was with me, helping me up whenever I’ve fallen. I told the Universe that maybe just this once, It’s mistaken; I’m too exhausted now, dreams fading away. A simple, No!” was the response and it sent chills through my entire being. In that moment I decided, if the Universe hasn’t given up on me, then I have to fight my way back to myself.
Some days are easier than others, I flow effortlessly with the energy within me. Other days, I have to dig deeper; the Universe reminds me to breathe and to practice Faith, Focus and Patience. Despite abhorring structure yet, needing it, I’ve been practicing and winning; it gets easier the more I do it. My fire within is rising, replacing exhaustion with beautiful energy and steady confidence. I’m even able to quiet Rage. Now when triggered, I take a beat to determine the best course of action. Each day, I’m becoming imperturbable, facing the most challenging parts of my healing journey. This is my reset.
“Faith, Focus, Patience, the trio that keeps me steady.”
The Universe has provided the time, space and resources for me to finally heal and become the being it created instead of the person worldly experiences made me; I am extremely honored and grateful. I don’t have a job that get in the way of my healing journey. Instead, I’m doing work that truly matters to me. I have complete control over my calendar and my time. I’m the creator I was born to be!
It feels strange to rest and not feel guilty. It feels strange to purchase things I want but may not “need” because I’ve earned the right to. It feels strange speaking up for myself without explaining myself. It feels strange not only setting boundaries but also enforcing them, no matter who or what. Peacefulness feels strange but I’m getting used to it and I refuse to let it go. It feels strange allowing my light to shine brightly no matter who it makes uncomfortable. I finally understand that is for them to deal with and I will never dim my light again for anyone, not anyone!
I hope that if you’ve ever doubted your worth, your brilliance or anything about yourself, you will take time to remember who you were created to be. I hope you will take the journey of returning to your beautiful self. I hope you will practice Faith, Focus and Patience to live a life you are proud of; a life you enjoy. I hope that you will remember that you are not alone, you never have been. Remember, the journey will have peaks, valleys and you may need to regroup along the way but you are worth every bit of it so keep moving forward.
With Love and Gratitude,
~ SereneSassySoul ~
P.S. When it comes to you, it’s never too late, you hear me, NEVER!
