Please Hold On to Yourself

Trauma stole my first love, I had to fight fiercely to get her back.

Trauma diminished trust built, joy earned.

Trauma destroyed my innocence, my sense of safety in the world.

Trauma turned the bright colors to grayscale, only remnants of my smile remained.

Trauma made it impossible to allow closeness, I retreated into the shadows alone.

Trauma caused numbness some days, desperate longing others.

Trauma created seemingly insurmountable obstacles to achieving goals, manifesting dreams.

Trauma developed an affinity for paying too much attention to others, leaving little for myself.

Trauma told me to stay far longer than I should have, too often.

Trauma made emotions tied to rejection and abandonment constant companions.

Trauma hid my potential, my gifts, my wisdom; it wanted me compliant with its narrative.

Trauma whispered consistently some part of me brought it on myself:

Despite being a child, I was somehow negligent with protecting myself.

Despite loving a man who claimed to love me, I allowed the abuse out of desperation.

Despite no reason to question “friendships”, I should have known better…anyway

Trauma took just about everything from me yet blamed me for every loss, all of the suffering and and even my emotional dysregulation.

Trauma tries to destroy you, undeservingly, unprovoked and then becomes the very thing you have to fight and heal from just to hold on to yourself.

You are worthy of holding on to, please hold on to yourself.

If you need someone to listen, without judgement or advice, someone who will sit beside you, please feel free to reach out to me. I am well-versed and had a long relationship with trauma; I am capable and willing to sit or stand beside you.

You deserve to heal on your terms.

You deserve to be and feel safe on a profound level.

You deserve joy.

You deserve peace.

You deserve to be supported.

You are essential, you need you and so does every other beautiful soul.

You are never alone, even when it feels like you are. Reach out! Don’t allow yourself to sit with Trauma alone; She/He doesn’t play fair.

Sending you love, peace and courage to choose YOU!

~SereneSassySoul~